Updated: Apr 4, 2021
Happy Birthday To Me.
35 Years
420 Months
12775 Days
306,600 Hours
Is all in me…
Who I know
Who I have forgotten
Who I will always remember
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12775 Days
306,600 Hours
Is all in me…
What I have learned
What I have lost
What I love
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Is all in me…
When I laughed a storm
When I cried a river
When my spirit was awakened
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Where I grew
Where I escaped
Where I am
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Why I was her
Why she was me
Why Bea is BRITTANY
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420 Months
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How I failed
How I won
How I became me
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Because I am grateful
Because I am not my past
Because I am μεράκι (Meraki)
35 Years
420 Months
12775 Days
306,600 Hours
Is all in me…
Updated: Apr 4, 2021
When Jada thanked Will for having the deep capacity to love her, I felt that like the words had come out of my mouth. I understand her and him because I am both of them; they are my binary order. My personal experience of being an open lover has been more about honesty and growth than it has been about sex or having multiply lovers simultaneously. I am certainly not Nola Darlin because I do not ‘gotta’ have it, but I did learn how to balance what I need and want from her. I have settled on the reason for my choice being that I deserve all the love and if someone wants to love me the way I deserve, who am I to stop him because pure love is boundless.
Who has seen all of me and can love all of me? That’s my entanglement.
Even I struggle with loving all of me simply because I have seen all of me. So the thing that I need to help me get there is in the depth of a lover’s soul who can bear the load of me and see the blessing of that experience, and it is also the same thing that allows a man to decide to love me with eyes wide open. I am what I am, and I have been loved by many for it. Surely, I cannot be loved for what I am not. I have welcomed lovers who did not have this thing. I have also pushed away lovers who have had this thing simply because I did not see it within them and I’m ok with that. Sometimes I have felt better alone than with anyone or many. It is about a feeling that emotes from me when the love that is good to me and for me is in sync. That is what will always keep me in love with love. The unconditional love energy that I require is something that I can feel, see, and hear all around me because that is what keeps any love bond of mine meaningful.~Love, Bea.
“To love well is the task in all meaningful relationships, not just romantic bonds.” Bell Hooks
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Updated: Apr 4, 2021
Escaping to where I know it exists…
My deity is love.
Love.
Love.
Love.
As long as we got it, we can make it.
We didn’t.
It wasn’t.
We wanted it to be.
We pretended happily.
Love wasn’t enough.
Love is enough.
I can’t believe it was love.
This new woman I am.
I have experienced unconditional love from a selfless man.
We weren’t love bound.
We were time bound, comfort bound, convenience bound.
Convincing ourselves it was time to be forever bound.
This is just my perspective.
I may be wrong.
I know what I felt.
The stagnant pool of residual emotions wasn’t enough.
A waterfall is how I envision love.
Here I am escaping to where love is compassionate, kind, forgiving and patiently waiting for me to take her hand.
Love.
Love.
Love.
As long as we got, love, love, love…
It.
It.
It.
It is just different with him.
He gives me the kind of love I thought didn’t exist.
Connected sexual, intellectually, spiritual and emotionally.
We on are levels together that have me orgasm from conversations.
How did we loose it?
I know where it is.
Do you?
Mine is within, but it comes out with him.
Maybe yours can come out with another her.
I doubt.
I really think you lost it purposely.
You don’t want it.
Mine is not enough for the both of us.
It.
It.
It.
It is ready to be it can flourish.
Learning love.
Living love.
Active love.
My deity is love.
I deserve all the love.
I have it.
Go get yours.
You need it.
You aren’t for me without it.
You are not for me with out it.
I don’t want you without it.
I am ready for it.
I see it in colors yet to exist.
All I want is It.
All I need is It.
Selfless, unconditional, forgiving, compassionate, patient, and kind it.
I’m not hard to find.
I’m where I know it exists.
Love.
Love.
Love.
Let me know when you got it.
Flowing love.
Evolving love.
It factor love.
